| The Book

I've written a lot and generally each piece has a place, but not always. For those uncategorized musings and ramblings, this shall be the book.

A place on the shelf, a page in the book, or a section of the page. Long-winded or brief, these are my words. Do what you will with them. - 09:57:34

December 19, 2020

Sitting by the fireplace enjoying the quiet of the morning and feeling inspired, I decided to start this little experiment which will undoubtedly go on for quite a while (knowing me...). For a bit now I've wanted to start writing again, but didn't really have a place to put just ramblings of my day to day. What is written here will be a little more raw and less polished, but will hopefully be enjoyable and valuable nonetheless. With that out of the way let's just get into what I wanted to talk about today.

The world around me feels like it's constantly shifting. So much has changed in just the last year, it's difficult to put into words. That said, we must start; so, let's start with the elephant in the room: the pandemic. This virus that has upended peoples lives in a way that's different for everyone, turned the world on its head, and altered the future on a scale that is unfathomable. From losses that scar to recoveries that mend and everything in between. Relationships between people have changed, social interactions have changed if not vanished entirely, and the world at large has undergone a shift; everyone fighting to survey in one way or another. It's frightening, saddening, maddening, and inspiring all at the same time. Worried about loved ones, feeling sadness and empathy for those lost or going through tough times, upset at myself for being complacent about topics that I now realize matter a great deal, and inspired by those that fight for the betterment of all of us, the growth I've undergone as a person, and the strength of those who've fought through the tough times and continue to. Humans are strong, but as we've all noticed we are also vulnerable. Not only to the virus, but malicious influence as well. There are those that want to see countries torn apart amidst the pandemic and are striving daily to that end. It's in those times, I feel, we must remember that if we are to be prosperous as a collective we must look out for one another. The strength of humanity is our ability to band together when things take a turn for the worst.

December 21, 2020

A peaceful night listening to my favorite audiobooks and spacing out got me thinking just how interesting it is to reflect on one's life. The ups and downs, ebbs and flows; work is more unproductive and frustrating than usual, hunger is absent, energy is low, and willpower reserve has bottomed out. Then after relaxing a little and taking my mind off of things I tend to slowly swing back in the other direction. Start having ideas again; wanting to write, to start a business. It's in these moments I tend to make better decisions for my future. Whether that's studying (investing my time), buying stocks (investing my money), or just being generally more productive. Meditation has been my most recent fascination. That in conjunction with grit or to put it another way: the willingness to continue doing something that's good for me long after I stopped wanting to or lost interest. So, meditation then. It's not easy to sit still at first and everything is a distraction. Then, slowly, it gets easier. What I currently struggle with is the posture. Sitting upright in with a straight back, shoulders relaxed, and neck over my shoulders. Posture has been a problem of mine for a while now and I was hoping to correct that by forcing myself to sit in that position for 10 to 15 minutes a day, every single day. This, in the hopes my core strength improves slowly over time. It's a practice in focus, patience, and strength to an extent and my goal is as it has always been: to be better today than I was the day before.